I have such funny reactions to stress and worry.
Most people would be reading like a fiend at this stage. Consuming large quantities of caffiene, not sleeping, refusing to answer the phone (well, maybe that's a little extreme). But, I sort of withdraw and go into denial. Instead of reading like a fiend, I screw around my apartment, snuggle with the cats, surf the web, go grocery shopping, and so forth.
*shrug*
I guess somewhere in the recesses of my subconscious I actually do believe it will be fine. I won't reorganize the field of American Politics, but I believe I will very likely pass, like so many before me, and move on like the rest of them. Well, on to Public Law, where I no doubt will have to answer some terribly amusing question in 2 weeks like "What is Law?" Fun times.
I can't stop listening to this song for some reason. It's Lucinda Williams, on her new album West, called "Are You Alright?" (Which is probably fairly obvious given the lyrics.) It's not the happiest song, and I don't feel any particular personal connection to it, which is usually what draws me in to a song like this. But, I keep repeating it when I'm in my car.
Are you all right?
All of a sudden you went away
Are you all right?
I hope you come back around someday
Are you all right?
I haven't seen you in a real long time
Are you all right?
Could you give me some kind of sign?
Are you all right?
I looked around me and you were gone
Are you all right?
I feel like there must be something wrong
Are you all right?
Cause it seems like you disappeared
Are you all right?
Cause I've been feeling a little scared
Are you all right?
Are you sleeping trough the night?
Do you have someone to hold you tight?
Do you have someone to hang out with?
Do you have someone to hug & kiss you?
Hug & kiss you
Hug & kiss you
Are you all right?
Are you all right?
Is there something been bothering you?
Are you all right?
I wish you could give me a little clue
Are you all right?
Is there something you want to say?
Are you all right?
Just tell me that you are ok
Are you all right?
Cause you took off without a word
Are you all right?
You flew away like a little bird
Are you all right?
Is there anything I can do?
Are you all right?
Cause I need to hear from you
Are you all right?
Are you sleeping trough the night?
Do you have someone to hold you tight?
Do you have someone to hang out with?
Do you have someone to hug & kiss you?
Hug & kiss you
Hug & kiss you
Are you all right?
Are you all right?
Are you all right?