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[rhd323]

Well, apparently I have excellent lung capacity/volume, but shitty exhalation. For some reason, my breathing is obstructed on the way out. What's worse is that the tests came out exactly the same 10, 15, and 20 minutes after I took 2 puffs from an Albuterol inhaler. Which means I've been carrying it around my purse for nothing. Which also means it's . . . well, not entirely back to the drawing board, but close enough for me. Something's up to have been on the other two inhalers for several weeks now and still have such results. So, back to see the doctor in a week or two, perhaps to try some different meds.

I've decided that Saturday evening I reminded myself of the retarded version of my 18 year old self. That is not a good thing to be reminded of. Something is wrong, but I'm not quite sure what. I am unhappy, clearly. But why? I have more and more of what I refer to as my aimless days. Not only do I fail to find motivation to tackle any academic work I have piling up (write a paper, read a shit-ton of books, RA work), but I also can't motivate to do the things I typically find enjoyable (I have 2 Netflix movies sitting on my counter from 3 weeks ago, I'm in the middle of a fiction book I haven't picked up in over a week, I don't actively surf the web and read all of the blogs I used to - instead I tend to refresh the same page repeatedly until I can't take that anymore . . . ).

Guess I'll have stuff to talk about in therapy next week.

Comments

[jessacord.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you have a textbook case of depression. You mentioned not too long ago that you had recently ended a relationship, perhaps that has something to do with it? While you may not spend your days pining over that relationship, the loss may have been enough to cause enough of a shift in brain chemistry that you are having trouble getting motivated to do the things you normally enjoy. I would also guess that Seattle's grey weather doesn't help either. I have more trouble in the winter with issues from my depression, but it those issues plague me year round anyway. I'm supposed to be taking celexa regularly, maybe one of these days I'll restart it. I do hope you get some answers to your lung issues and that your therapist is able to help with your other stuff....(hugs)

[wyntermoonwolf.livejournal.com]

I tend to agree with this assessment because I've been there recently and I recognize the listlessness described.

The cure? Time.

[baristababe.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I feel like I'm always waiting . . . to feel healthy, to feel happy, to feel less stressed . . .

[baristababe.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I was thinking the same thing. Textbook. I'll have to bring it up to her next week . . . maybe I need a dose increase or a change in medication or something.

[kittydelight.livejournal.com]

Shauna depressed? NEVER!

[baristababe.livejournal.com]

You'd think I'd just go ahead and get used to it after all this time . . .

[gripesofwrath.livejournal.com]

*hug*

Now go read your articles.

[baristababe.livejournal.com]

:(

[aenima11.livejournal.com]

Perhaps the feelings you describe are all but known to the one you need to tell the most. Look inside yourself, you already know why it is you feel this way.

[baristababe.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you're right . . .

[baristababe.livejournal.com]

Ah, why thank you. And I suppose it's obvious, but it also means you are most certainly not alone. :)

I'm sorry to hear about your trials and tribulations with your physical/mental/emotional health. Frustrating, aren't they? What's worse, is that I'm convinced they're all interrelated, so it all negatively feeds into each other . . .

[baristababe.livejournal.com]

Oh goodness!

Avoiding stress is a very, very wise thing. I'm not so good at it. :-/